Long Time No See

sorry i haven't updated much.
school is killing me.
but Thankgiving Break is next week and i have some AMAZING storyline videos for you guys planned.
any other videos you want while I have a week to film?
please spam my comment here with video ideas.

      

new pets?

So yesterday my brother got rid of his fish (we sold them not killed them) and we bought two hamsters. One is named FiFi (short for Fiona) and one is named Lola. Lola is mine and FiFi is my brothers. My dog however, Valerie, she is not liking them too much. poor dog. She like hates them. It quite entertaining to watch though.

I stayed home sick today. Not sick sick, but I am having stomach problems again. To the doctors office soon. I am quite excited to see what KATE (yuu know who that is guys) said to the dean about one of my recent blog posts. I mean i seriously didn't do anything wrong. I didn't say anything bad about her or Tiresa (yea yuu can guess who that is) I just said exactly what happened. And then KATE called me and was all like "You don't have the right to do that" and I said "Well, its my life, if i wanna put it on the internet I can. If you don't want to be in it, then just don't do anything to me" and then she said "Well, I already printed it out so you can't delete it. And I'm going to show it to the dean and get you suspended" and I said "Oh don't worry. I won't delete it. (this part was sarcastically) and i would just LOVE to be suspended. I mean I would be SOO happy" then she made the comment "Why? Is it because no one likes you and thinks your a whore?" and I just smile. She couldn't see because we were on the phone but then I said "Oh yes! That is TOTALLY the reason!" Then we went back and forth like that for a little and i really got tired of her trying to hurt my feelings so I just hung up the phone. I was chilling with Rachel in subway when this happened.

Hmm... what else do I need to catch you up on in my life? OH.
So yesterday in gym class we were playing crab soccer. Basically there is a GIANT squishy soccer ball and everyone is sitting in a square and two people from each of the four teams are in the middle kicking the ball over a different team. Anyone who is not in is allowed to block the ball if it comes towards there team. with their feet. This whole time you have to be in a crab position. How fun. Anyway. I was sitting next to Tiresa (yea) and i don't know if it was an accident (i don't think it was on purpose) but the ball had come over to us and we both kicked and she kicked my leg. twice... I don't think she tried to kick me though. But I do have two kinda gross scratches on my lower calf. I'll live.

OH ANOTHER THING!!!
I now have a daily workout routine. and I am rocking it!

                       -ToryUnicorn <3

so like yea.

Anyone know the song "Going Under - Evanescence"
well i am planning a killer story line music video to it.
for anyone who actually reads these blogs i decided to post the storyline here and ask for yuur feedback before i ask a certain someone to play the part of my "boyfriend" in the video.
well... here it is.

STORYLINE: Her boyfriend was never like this. They were so happy together until something went wrong. After giving in to drinking, he becomes addicted and abusive to her. She hates it, but she can't leave. She wants to, and she knows she HAS TO, but she loves him too much. She realizes she needs to leave and when he comes and tries to stop her, she grabs a knife. When he grabs her and holds her back, she uses the knife to break free. She's better off without him anyway.

any good?

im not sure.

i kinda like it and the more detailed script is pretty nice,

see in my head it turns out great,

but everytime i end up filming and editing one of these,

it NEVER turns out how i planned.

and this one i REALLY want to be good.

now SHHHHH...

SPOILER ALERT!!!

There is a kiss scene(;

             -ToryUnicorn <3

work. ew.

Today I had to work.
EW.
I had to help keep an eye on 30 other children ages 5 - 12.
gross.
and we went to an indoor pool.
i had to help them change.
LOL.
so this one girl was changing and she just like took her bathing suit off, right out in the open ( in the locker room but still) and is just walking around butt naked. ermm. awkward much?
yea i designed a few shirts though with them and I cut the sleeves off and the collars and the bottoms and made crop tops, tank tops, and off-the-shoulder tees. ill take pics and post them next time.
I also checked my PO Box and I received my NEW FLIP HD CAMCORDER from OBXGirl333!!!
i am SO excited to show that to you guys.
i love yuu guys SO much <3

Oh and one thing.
I am allowed to hang out with a guy I like and NOT be dating...
yet.

                 -ToryUnicorn <3

Halloween Night TWIST!

So i thought i was going to be all alone for Halloween. Rachel had invited me to go trick or treating with her and Lexi but Lexi was all like "I really dont want her to come" So of course I didn't. I then got bored and decided to put on my Halloween costume and make a random vlog(: Soon after I finish filming I get a call. I didn't have the number in my contacts so i answered in curiosity. It was Alex. We had gone to Fright Night on October 16th, 2010 but hadn't really talked much since then. Anyway, he had invited me over to go trick or treating (how mature) since he was going to be alone. I thought about it and said yea.

So once I got there in my costume (check out my Halloween Vlog to see my costume) we walked around (just me and him) through a whole bunch of dark forests (with snakes, luckily i didn't see one) and we chilled at the Elementary School playground. It's what all the cool kids are doing nowadays(; We talked a little about our random lives then we hit up a few houses for some candy. Cause thats what all 13 year olds and 15 year olds do on Halloween(;

Then we got lost. How fun. LOL. We didn't OFFICIALLY get lost but we had no idea where to go to get back to his house. We walked around for about 45 minutes before we FINALLY found the turn to his house. now THAT was interesting. Anyway, once we got back we went into his room and dumped out our candy. We traded a whole bunch of stuff (oh how cool are we) and then we sat down and watched Robin Hood. I had no idea what it was about or what was going on but i still sat there(:

Thn around 10:00 PM I got picked up to go back home. Overall I had a great Halloween. I don't need any of those haters telling me off. I had the best Halloween with a great guy while they were out with there GIRLfriends. How ironic(: So yea. That was my Halloween. How was yours? What did you dress up as?

               -ToryUnicorn <3

New Eyes.

Everything felt so right,
while everything was so wrong,
i didn't want to look back,
in fear of regret flooding my mind.

I could have called you mine,
but tonight I'll be crying,
instead of holding you close,
for everything was so wrong.

A night away from reality,
makes everything seem alright,
I call you up with a smile,
but there was no answer.

I sat alone back in reality,
and realize what a mess I am,
I look at the world,
with new eyes.

I don't like this one.
i found it in one of my poetry journals from a year ago.
thoughts?
i have a few short stories I'll post when I have more time to write.
I also have a lot to share about my life.

A Poem By Me

It's called, Who I Am.

Who I Am
I'm broken,
deep inside,
with no one to hear me cry.
Nobody,
or angels,
to help me through my life.
I'm laughing,
but inside,
I'm dying I know me too well.
I look in,
the mirror,
the tears roll down my cheeks,
I'm fat and,
too ugly,
all my insecurities show,
I'm awkward,
and too tall,
I'm starting to not like myself,
my reflection,
looks at me,
with fire in its eyes,
It told me,
to stand tall,
and be the person I am.
I stood up,
and smiled,
I'm happy to be who I am. 

So yea.
I really like this poem and yes I did write it myself. I'm not sure though, should I share more of my personal writing here? I would LOVE too but if you guys don't want me too, i won't.

The Full Story

Heres how it started. Well, heres what happened BEFORE Kaitlyn blew up at me. I always watch what I eat. I'm not like obsessive or anything I just keep an eye on what I eat. So Kaitlyn had a birthday party last weekend and I was invited. (As well as Torrie and another girl who isn't really in this). I was already kinda in a bad mood because (for those of you who know) I was being cyberbullied and harrased by a girl at my school. But, it was Kaitlyn's birthday and I didn't want to miss it, so I went. I guess I was kinda out of it. So when we got back from hanging at the mall, Kaitlyn and Torrie wanted to play RockBann on the XBOX. I don't really like that game, and there were 3 controllers in sight and four of us. So i just decided to sit on the couch and watch. Apparently that hurt Kaitlyn's feelings. I'm not really sure why but it did. She was all pissed at me and didn't talk to me since then.
The next day Torrie and I were supposed to film for our movie (which is now on hold) Torrie calls me up about 30 minutes before we are supposed to film and says "I don't have my lines memorized so I can't do it" I was pretty upset. I caled up my friend Jenna to see if she could play that part instead but she couldn't because it was too much work memorizing her original part and Torrie's part and I understood that.
The next day at lunch I go over to Kaitlyn and ask "Hey, are you still mad? Because I'm sorry about the whole party thing" We talk a little and I find out about how I annoy her. Apparently watching what I eat is annoying. And this is word-for-word what she said "I don't really have a reason for this, but I don't really wanna be your friend" and I didn't really care that much because Kaitlyn and I weren't that close anyway. So, right after lunch Kaitlyn and Torrie come to my locker. Kaitlyn says "Maybe we should work this out" and I said "You just told me 10 minutes ago that you didn't want to be my friend" I almost have all my stuff for my next class when she says "Why can't we just talk?" I shut my locker and walk away and say "Because I don't want to" and then Kaitlyn yells "YOU ARE SUCH A BITCH" Like really loud.
That same day (about 45 minutes later) I go to the counselour and she brings Torrie and Kaitlyn in so we can talk. Kaitlyn still said she didn't want to be my friend and I was ok with that. What really hurt is that Torrie is always SAYING that she's there for me and she never is. She watched her best friend (Kaitlyn) bash me out and call me a bitch and she just sat there. Anyway, I just let that day go.
The next day I was talking to Torrie a little bit in P.E. and I was trying to think of all the possible reasons Kaitlyn could hate me. I had a feeling the calories weren't the whole thing. I had brought up, "Maybe she's jealous? I have no clue of what, but maybe?" Torrie  and I discussed things a little bit and she said she wouldn't tell Kaitlyn. But of course, as Torrie would, she told Kaitlyn.
The next day, Kaitlyn goes up to my in the morning and says "I would never be jealous of a flat-chested, flat-faced bitch" I just kinda sat there and smiled. Torrie was ONCE AGAIN just standing there watching. Se watched Kaitlyn say that to me and didn't say anything.
Some friend right?
That's just the story with Kaitlyn and Torrie. There's a whole other story about Jina and everything else in my life. Maybe another day you'll get those juicy details

                       -ToryUnicorn <3

drama, drama, and more DRAMA!!!!

This is defiantly going to sound stupid, which it is. Kaitlyn and Torrie are mad at me. Why? It all started at Kaitlyn's birthday party. I do watch what I eat meaning I tend to check the calories in things before I eat them. So, apparently that was annoying her. When I check the calories. Stupid right? Then after a LOONG talk with the counselor (Torrie, Kaitlyn, and I) Kaitlyn says I am a flat-chested, flat-faced, bitch. WOW. Kaitlyn I was so offended!! NOT. She is really getting on my nerves. There are more details but I really don't think anyone wants me to share those so I won't.